"especially for you "

suddenly, this night I feel so bad in missing u..
Wondering about our time together and spend the day with u..
But I realize ure too far away..
Far away from my reaches..

i am only know, that we are trying to give our best in this long journey
Future is not in our own..
Its secretly keep by God..
But, as a human we need to keep trying..
Trying to reach the happiness
Lets God make it perfect when the time comes...

(Badly missing u efraim, but I know keep trying ur best in there and let me also catch up my dream in here, its not an easy things to get through, but at least we try to make this journey complete..)

Success for u.. Spirit up.. For me also :D.

-sincerely
Jkt, 01.41pm.. Marlen deine
Freiburg, 06.50pm efraim

karokean sampe kering..

hahahahha, what a full day..

starts with a class from 2pm until 5pm..

very bored.. humff...

and after it we try find some place to throw out this complicated mind..

coz.. this past week is so full day..

:(.

dan akhrnya terpilihlah inul vista lipcikkk..

gw, ester, marcel, saka, dewa, and hadri berangkat ke sna

as usually by 33...

wkwkkwkkwkwkw..

the first stop is wendys.. coz as u know, dewa udh klaperan kya org ga dksi makan 2 taon haha..

bought some burger, and some ice, chit-chat for while and we go to karoke

hahahahhaha..

book medium room for us, sitting there for around 2,5 hours hahha..

just singging, laughing and have some fun...

dari mulai krispatih, ada band, roma irama, the bagindaz, sampe lady gaga semuanya lahap euyyy...

kakang saka, kakang hadri bagus nian suarana hahahaha...

happy for today...hope we can always have enjoyable time like this :))

next destination on next week... puncak euyyy.. yuk mariiii..!!!.. :D

>>>>time to sleep zzzzz

-- Biar mataku seperti mataMu, pancarkan kasihMu
Ku mau jadi sepertiMu--

Bapa kau setia tak kan meninggalkan
Dan ku percaya engkau miliku dan ku milikMu..
Kerinduanku tinggikan,namaMu..
Karna ku tau Kau dalamku dan ku dalamMu..

--ubah hatiku seputih hatimu, setulus salibMu Tuhan--

((Ku mau jadi sepertiMu)).. :)

Bless This Plan Jesus :)

In the name of jesus I believe my plan can be come true..
I just want to write down and send it to my almighty God
who own this earth and my future, may it will be bless and he can prepare all the things perfectly until this plan can be completely done, as his plan.

----do my internship for next smester (8,9) in good company
At least, I get the beneficial company, can survive there without any disturbance..I pray it to you God, give me the best place to intern.

----graduate, with a good score.. Give me strength to do the thesis.. And all of graduation stuff.. (Still wondering for cum laude) but I have make it worse..

----get my master degree in England or Holland..bless me to get this master scholarship, if its allow for the fresh graduate, I will directly apply it. I pray for this God, I have prepare for this, please help me to make this come true, the procedure, all the requirement please help me to passed it and finally got it..

----get the job, even Iam the fresh graduate, which is usually difficult to get the job, but I believe u have made the space for me, never stop to put my hope in u God, give me the best company, good postion and bless me in my career..(1-2years)

----2nd option, get my master degree after work experience if the first one is pending to do. It still same at England or Holland.. I pray for this God.( We'll se e what is the best for me)

----happy me and let my parents and all the people who love me become proud of my success


I believe u know what I have plan God
But I write it down again to let you know
That I have a faith to make it complete..
I know, u understand what is the best for my future..
Never doubt at you..
Never stop believing that u have beautiful plan for my future
So, I give all my future arrow to You..
Let ur mercy be happen in my life God..

:))...

destiny can be changed

yes, that was the prIde saying this night..
Destiny can be change...
Because we born to be a winner..

What ever our destiny, we can set up it to be the best one...
If we have faith, if we have spirit, and If we want to put our hope in jesus..

Sometimes, we don't satisfy enough with thiS life..
We won't to give some effort to changed..
We just surrender to what will happened..
That's a big NO NO NO

And tonight, we need to wake up.. Try to set what u want to get
give some effort to achieve, combine it with strong faith.
Remember its nothing impossible for our all Mighty God.. :)

Just like my simple dream, I want to be the one who has beautiful future..
And I believe it will be happen to me..

Because we born to be winner!!.. :))..
Nothing impossible in God hands in other words
"Which is impossible for human, it will be absolutly possible for our Father Jesus christ"
-len

Amien...

time goes so fast

i just remember that for a few month ago, im just begin this smester..

my 6th smester..

and now, we already at the middle..

in the middle of this smester..

so fast.. 

i'll be finished this smester 

and begin the 7smester..

do my internship and done!!

it is so absolutely fast tracking for me..

but i like it..coz i cant wait to enter my new world..

which is in the working field..

i cant arrange what will be happened..

but, i just hope that all my dreams will be come true...

that was my pray also..

still remember when i entered my campus..

become a new student..

first time experience the college life...

get into in complicated of the "colleger"

friendship problems,, family problems,, and even the love problems..

i had it...

i face it...

we share together and try to give strength for anyone who face it...

that was the essense of friendship that i have learn until this day...

full of smile, laugh, tears, 

be completed by happiness and disppointed sometimes...

but im so glad i can learn this..

it can change with anythig.. the lesson its too meaningfull and important for me...

i wanna say thanks for the moment that we can share together...

its too precious to passed and its too meaningfull to forget..

the best way is memorize it and keep it in our mind...

even the time goes so face, even the days passed me, is still get to remember this moment

as smething that i learn from the real life....

-mlen-

life must be gone, what ever the choice

yes... life is must be gone.. what ever the reason..
what ever have happened, we can not ask the time to stop for a while..
even more, to go back...
no,,not at all..

and what i want to share in here..
is a simple one but its complex to explain..
same like a life.. its a simple but its too complicated to play the role on it..

today i learn something, actually one of my best friends which is ester..
she tell me about some of her cases..
and did you know somethin???
after sharing and try to find out what is the best way to overcome..
i rolling eyes and i try figure out, what will i do if i be her?..its confusing
really confusing..

when we defend someone with all of our strength but we got nothing
NOTHING at all!!
so hurt..
so sick..
and disappointed..
that was her feeling.. and i know its not an easy things to solve..

but, i also try to position my self in the person who being suspect..
and did u guess something?
it also so weight to be in this situation..
no help,,, but actually u need any help...
no consideration.. but actually u need any consideration
seems so cruel..
but that was the reality friends..

people will judge us from how we act and behave to another person..
if have a good record.. congrats to you..
but if its not.. welcome to the darkness..

what i have learned is
try drive your self carefully..
so then u will not get any mistake..
means " RARE" to get it..

friends, life must be go on..maybe someone must be feel hurt and being cheated..
but without that life is so straight..no essence
that's why we usually called  life is like a games..
what we must do is play on it
but play carefully..
because the one who can play it well will be the winner...
that why i call life as " a destiny games "
we cant guess what we will be? win or loss..
but we can set it...
mlen,-

what a tired day!!!

what a tired day...
i have done my assignments at 2.am..
sounds nice humfff....

but i doesnt matter because i have recharge my energy..
hahha, i have slept for 3 hours this afternon...
so it means that balance between sleep and works..
humfff,, i dont know what i have to write down..
so sorry if you read this blog little bit confusing..
:D..

everydae sleep at 3.am, the most earlier at 2.am..
can u diagnose, what is going on my body??
i get high insomia syndrome mybe...
but i donnno.. how to solve it, its a kind of hibitual activity..
:"(

this week and all the following weeks will be the most exhausted ones..
because i'll do the entrepreneurship business, some sucks quiz, hundred assignments..
and some other bored stuff...
that was my responsibilty..no choices mlen...!!

humff... hopefully i can done it well..
and may God still give me any strength to survive
in this tiring weeks...

T.T tiring me...

the fortune teller

i just come back from church.. and i met a taxi driver..
he drive me until my house.. and can u guess somethin..
as long as the road he tell me about my self, my love story, my future...
hehhhhhmmff,,,
he's like a fortune teller, and he said that he has ability to read someone face and hands...
little bit scary to hear all the words that he has spoken..

but i dont believe it...
i dont want to take it too deeply..
because i know the one who own my future is Jesus...
and no one can google His plan in my life...

so, for taxi driver, so thankfull u have to try to see my future
and telling me somekind of scary things,,
but i want to let you know.. that i never scary wiff anything,,,,
because i walk with my almighty God...

i believe my God is more than evertything,.
Jesus has given his life for us..
and it means that, we are as His children will not life in darkness...
he has washed my sins,, he has renew me...
with his grace...

so, i can say that,, i never scare wif the bad luck or somethin..
because i know and i see,, my God has showed me the good luck..
every single time in my life...

:D,- that was my faith...
amien...

Learn to be more mature

i thinking about somethin this night..

i was wondering that now im 20th years old

and God still give me chance to breath especially His still give me time to LIVE

and i feel his Grace and Mercy..

mybe i dont know what will be happened yet..

but i just want to be someone that can use the time wisely..

i want to be the one who can learn from the experience

whether its bad or good..

make every moment become a lessons..

a lessons which can teach me and guide to be more mature...

especially in facing this unpredictable life...

i believe that God never close His eyes..

everything that have happened in my life, already set and plan by him...

to lose, to win, to wait, to stay, to go... everything have been decide by Him

what i must do is just take all the moment t become a Lesson

Lesson to be a better person...

so then i will be the one who can say "nothing to lose "

NOTHING TO LOSE because i learn everthings from my past moment.... :)

thanks for your love Jesus,

thanks for extraordinary Parents,

thanks for precious BestFriends,

thanks all God...

Mlen,-